By Ismail Warsame
Guess, like many people, I sometimes feel uneasiness for no obvious reasons. I sought some explanations for my situation and couldn’t figure out what was bothering me. It took me a while to sort out why I wasn’t myself. I assumed many versions of thinking and personal evaluations. Each assessment of myself wasn’t as convincing as I would have thought to be, discarding one by one after a bit of silent deliberations. By crossing out those considerations, a thought finally struck me. The solution lies in what I was doing at that moment when I was feeling a bit of discomfort. I had discovered that I was engaged in procrastination of something among my to-do list. That was right! My soul was alerting me quietly that I was putting off an important priority either for the day or in the foreseeable future. However, once I started doing what I was supposed to do, boredom was no longer an issue.
Another important personal self-discovery I experienced recently is that I used to go out to places to meet with people, friends, colleagues, acquaintances etc. When I didn’t find some happy faces to meet me enthusiastically, or others, who have negative attitudes in their topics of discussion, I felt that I was wasting my time and wasn’t doing what I was obligated personally to do in my daily routine. I have been trying to find a remedy for this kind of personal situation. Here comes the problem of personal echo: You consider yourself an important personality and you want the world to smile for you once you are out of your home in the morning. On the contrary, you get disappointed. And the solution? Kill that echo! With that mindset from the start of the day, you would feel freedom and personal liberation. Understand that you aren’t important to people, if you don’t have what they were looking for, or have the connections they need to get there. Knowing this fundamental fact about human beings, is itself a great personal self-discovery. If you go out, don’t be ashamed of sitting alone in a suitable spot in social amenities without attempting to attract any one’s attention.
Finally, understanding that most people seek and want you when they think that you are in an enviable position of privilege, power and wealth, is a sobering experience you would appreciate as you enter into that phase of self-knowing.
In conclusion, enjoy your life as simple as you can, and most importantly, be indifferent to the search for self-importance and attention. That way, you will be a truly free person.